oh boy, it's been awhile hasn't it? i know, i suck. i apologize readers for not being up to date lately. life got in the way, and i felt like i did not have enough hours in a day to blog. sad i know. but, i find myself with a few minutes to spare so i thought i would take a moment and write down all of the thoughts bouncing around very non-conspicuously in my cranium.
1) readers, the decision has been made, and i will be serving a mission for the church of jesus christ of latter day saints. phew, that's a mouthful. but it is a sling of words that i can not wait to title myself with. i have never felt so absolute about a decision in my whole life. my heart beats rapidly at the thought of putting on a name tag, living somewhere new, and discovering people that i know will change my life. i am absolutely in love with the idea of it. a have a few more months until i leave of course, but the anticipation of it all is what motivates me in the morning to get up and live life the best that i can.
2) biology sucks. sorry, i just had to get that one out there.
3) and finally, there is something that i have had on my mind alot lately. you see, a few weeks ago a girl that i knew from high school was in a terrible accident while driving on the freeway. the consequences seem severe, for she is currently in a coma at the hospital. now this girl was an extraordinary human being. she was kind, patient, loving, talented, and stunning. she was a real gem, in every sense of the word. it is a terrible occurrence and a tragic accident. it got me thinking though, you really do never know what life is going to throw at you. and you may never know just when your last day in the temporary state may be. there is not time for rushed apologies, un-spoken expressions of love, or harsh words full of regret. there just simply is not time. everyday we open our eyes to the horizon before us, we should be thankful. whether you believe in god or not, we all have to feel like there is some higher power allotting us time to breathe. we are all ticking clocks, and with every passing hour our cogs wind down just the slightest amount. for this reason, it is crucial that we take advantage of every single minute we are given. do not rush through life, just going through the motions. soak in the wind, feel the raindrops, smell the world, and see the beauty in every person around you. i think that is the key to living a prosperous life. spend time finding what you love, who you love, and what things you would die for. this is happiness. this is wealth, and this is prosperity. i know that i need to work on this. and i am making a goal to look at life a little differently now. every day will be an opportunity to change the world. one small step at a time. every day will be a chance to love and be loved in return. every day will bring forth chances that are meant to be taken.
i wish to express my deepest and sincerest apologies to the krause family, while also expressing my utmost gratitude i have for their daughter. she is changing lives without even meaning to. i will keep kilee in my prayers and continue hoping for a full recovery in her favor. thank you for reminding me what life really is. your example is breathtaking. keep pushing on little lady.