April 4, 2016

My name is Hannah Thomas, and I am a suicide attempt survivor. 

I’ve had a long battle with depression and self harm that started when I was 14 years old. I wasn’t diagnosed till I was a sophomore in high school with depression and anxiety and insomnia. It was extremely hard for me to open up. I was in a toxic relationship that only made me spiral more. Self harm became an addiction. I was constantly worried about my weight and what I looked like. I believed that I wasn’t lovable. That I was a disappointment to my friends and family. I started struggling in school. By the end of my sophomore year, I went to a therapist and I was given medication. I still never talked about how I felt. I didn’t like opening up. I didn’t think anybody understood the darkness and sadness that I felt. My only outlets were music and dance. But when I got really depressed, I didn’t like those things anymore either. I began to believe that my life had no purpose. That I had no purpose. When I was 17 years old, I attempted to kill myself. Luckily, family found me before it was too late. I was put into a hospital where I learned how to fight the depression and the bad thoughts. 

I am now 19 years old, and I feel more like myself than I have in a long time. I am able to open up and say how I feel, and I’m not afraid to ask for help when I need it. I am now 19 years old and I have learned that I have so much to live for. My life is just beginning and I have so much in store for me. If my life would have ended, I would have missed out on some pretty amazing things, and some pretty amazing people. I just want you all to know that you are not alone. Ever.  I encourage anybody who has felt the way I have felt to reach out to someone you trust and get help. If you know someone who you think might need help, talk to them. You might save a life. I’m so grateful for this life and the struggles that God has given me. They have made me strong and I have learned so much, and I can’t wait to learn so many more things throughout the rest of my life. 

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